Reflectivesurfaces's Blog

There are few people in this world who truly know what their gift is. Everyone is blessed with some speciality; something that puts them apart from the rest of the human race. It can be obvious talents, like music, or racecar driving, or artistic ability. Or it can be subtle, such as an ability to make people feel better when they are around you, or a calm assertive nature that allows one to function in a highly stressful environment. I especially appreciate people with these gifts, especially in the emergency department of the local hospital. I, too, have a gift. I am consistently inconsistent.

At first glance, it would not seem to be a very useful gift. Training a pet takes forever, because I cannot remember to give them a treat only when they do what is expected. Sometimes, my pets get a treat for just breathing. But it doesn’t improve their sit and stay skillset. With my consistent inconsistency, it is always up for a gamble whether I attend a meeting on the correct day, in the correct place, at the correct time. Sometimes, I am very punctual and organized. But often…not so much.

However, on the positive side, being consistenly inconsistent means that it would be difficult to establish my set rountines, which, according to all the TV detective shows, can be dangerous and makes it very easy for someone to frame you for a murder or political bombing. I am always worried about that! Being inconsistent with my consistency also means that I will never get into a rut. That would require someone to be completing a similiar life pattern on a regular basis. I’m afraid, I’m not gifted in that area.

I am creative in my consistent inconsistency. Sometimes I try to blame external forces. People who know me, know that it is highly unlikely that external forces could be at play. It would require an awareness of the greater world around. I don’t have that either.

Maybe that is a gift too.